Whilst we acknowledge that the narcissist had made you feel inadequate and unworthy, the real truth is, you are stronger than you realise. Why? No one sane enough would think of continually insulting and tearing down somebody that they are superior to, yet that’s what the narcissist regime has done to you.. It has taken a prolonged, sustained campaign of slow, heavy duty, torture style tactics over several years to get to where you are today.
The great news is, it doesn’t take years for the damage to be reversed. Immediate relief can be felt the second you go no contact. Boundaries and assertive skills can be learnt within a month. Complex PTSD treatment has a range of tools available to calm and soothe the soul quite quickly.
You can get to the stage where external stimuli that would otherwise be triggering will no longer send you into a toxic shame spiral leaving you feeling shitty for days afterwards. Better yet, your emerging self confidence and strong boundaries immunises yourself against attempted narc attacks. Add this to your fact that you survived the effects of a personality disordered individual and you are a spiritual warrior.
Please get to this stage of your life as soon as is practical, because the rewards of strength in yourself are very worthwhile. You can be the strongest person you know.
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Learning to Fall 
Michel.
All the bullshit and drama that I have dealt with in the past has made me a stronger person.
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Quincy,
That’s the spiritual test. Pass it first time, or have the lesson repeated over and over again.
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What most black men fail to realize is that all your enemies are your slaves. You just have to adjust thinking to become the master you are. Remember, a good master is not concerned with the thoughts, feelings and beliefs of his slaves.
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That’s an interesting point of view. There is some truth in what you’re saying, especially when you get to that wonderful place where healing and strength start and a platform can be built. Going to think on this…
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@Michel. I believe it is true. Any attacks by the enemy are just unsuccessful slave revolts. As long as you exist, your enemy’s slave revolts will be unsuccessful.
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